Monday, 2 February 2009
Give it a shot,


As it's already so late, she sent me this picture so as to sum up the whole day.
This was taken when i was at The Cage playing soccer with numboys.
Had a terrible time playing, as my thigh hurts like mad.
I still thought that i tore my thigh muscle but its getting better already so its not.
Nonetheless, i still manage to score alot. Even though i havnt been playing since 10 mths ago.( that explains my thigh ache).
Before that, i went to gym with her.
Just the two of us.
And her MRT brought her from waringinpark to lowerdelta in less than 15 minutes wow.
isn't it obvious she came by cab-.-
So she went to gym with me, spend 5mins on the threadmill, 10mins doing weights and she sit there like a tua bei gong, people-watch.
And yet she dare say that she wants to come to gym, not becos she wants to see me heheh.
After 2 hrs of cage(supposed to be 4hrs), we went to Kallang leisure park to have Sushi which sucked to the max.
Nihon mura, right?
Just suck, form atmosphere to price to food.
Then we went over to Bugis for L4D which we didn't play for a long time.
spend an hour and a half trying to complete to fucking Bloodharvest final stage which we failed becos of the fucking tanker, thrice.
But we get to know that we could download L4D through bittorrent and then play using garena hahah isn't that great!
althou playing alone at home would be kinda freaky, with the witch's crying coming out from the com.
She went home by cab, and i went to celebrate Kumar's 24th bday ahhaha!
We ate, den we went to the neighbourhood to chill and they talk about sex and prostitutes after one old malay uncle brought 3 magazines consisting photoshoots of naked japanese women.
Came home, played dota with her and Bng and we end the game in 33mins and i got 22-2 oh yeah.
She was very happy becos Bng and her finally got better.
Althou they are just bestfriends, their problems seems to be occuring more often than a couple.
HAHAHA.
So now im done blogging, and the big-fat-girl is still typing her ass off since dunno how long ago sigh.
Work tmr 12-5, as usual, pontank school.
After that would be movie?
Then will start studying for my upcoming exams ):
I dunno how i'll fare this sem, but i promise next year will be different, even if it means that i have to retake alot of modules sigh.
And im always thinking of my future, what i want to be and blah blah.
Yet to no avail.
i'm clueless about it.
):
anw see! im back to blogging, isnt that good! hahahah!
Can we be like this, even if we're in a rship?
Every kisses, every hugs, gives me warmth and love.
Althou what we did today is almost the same as any other day, but the feeling within,
seems to be different.
Dont you dare say that you didn't enjoy today, cause i did.
I wanto be with you, in a rship, yet spending everyday like how we did today.
what's missing then?
Can we finish what we started, cause i do love you alot.

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Sunday, 1 February 2009
i have photographs and memories of the times.

"I know I shouldve spend more time.
That was my mistake.
Girl I don't wanna change your mind,
But before you go,
Just know that, I wasn't tryna push you away.

All I ever wanted, was you to stay.
And before you up and leave,
I just need you to see.
Losing you was not a part of the plan,
Know that, I wasn't tryna push you away.
And before you go Just let me say,
I'm sorry I could'nt be that boy.
But please believe,
All I wanted was... all I wanted was to be your man."



Kissing is supposed to be a form of expressing love.
Hugging is a form of appreciation.
Then, does this mean that,
we were just kissing for the sake of kissing, hugging for the sake of hugging lately?

I remember the first time we kissed, was two years back.
It was so long ago but i still can vividly remember how wide your smile was, on the cold bus ride.
We felt that the world consisted only the two of us, and as if we were an item back then.
Why, its a different thing now?

We used to be able to go anywhere in Singapore yet boredom will never ever occur.
Tampines, bedok, Jurong and anywhere, we dated everywhere and we'll be so excited about it.
but lately, we'll always have disagreements on where to go.
and dating starts to be something we dread.

And because of what we went through together before, we always thought that this rship will last, just like this.
We came together, yet didn't manage to fit into each others' lives.
We came, and we changed it.
that should'nt be the case.
why?
why can't we really put our hearts into trying to be together.

Are you willing to spend 5 minutes to think about it?
We are always doing what you wanto do, and not mine.
what time to sleep, what time to wake, where to go and where to eat.
we meet your friends so often compared to meeting my friends, and whereever we did, you will be bored, sian blah blah blah.
and when i wanna meet my friends you'll say i priortise them over you.

im not saying that i've got no faults, just that you didn't thought of what you did before you pin point my faults.
Very often, i find myself having alot of thoughts inside of me whenever we quarrel.
becos i dun have anyone to talk to, i dont seek a listening ear from my friends, these thoughts just accumulate.
Not that i didnt wanto say, just that they will be stashed somewhere deep inside of me whenever we're happy.

life's been boring, mundane.
It's just your house, friends, dota.
Computer is a addiction.
Apparently, we'll rather lose each other than to lose our computers.

however, i do admit that i've changed.
sometimes i just doesnt wana care.
sometimes i just feel frustrated over little nonchalant things you do.
sometimes im petty and angry over irritating actions that you do repeatedly
sometimes im pissed off by how messy and dependant you are on others.
i was never like this..
never felt like this before..
perhaps,i need you to be able to look deep within me and understand how i feel.
I even want you to be me, and i be you, so that we can understand better.
i know it's hard, mayb impossible.
that is why i didn't mention it to you.
but still, i really had put my heart down, to settle down with you.
stability didn't come by i guess.

Maybe it's time...
It's time to say goodbye again.
for this is the only time we can judge, whether this rship is worth keeping.
it's weird, on how i always miss you whenever we're apart while quarreling,
how i wanted you to be here or having myself over at waringinpark right away.
But this... sigh.
if we can never cherish and appreciate one another, mayb it's best we live our lives alone.
mayb we might even feel better being alone than in a rship that is not what you want.

goodnight, i hope you'll feel great tmr.
And i would rather you be happier than me even when this ends.
Glad to have you in a big chapter of my life.
Thanks babe, thanks.




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Saturday, 20 December 2008
Back.

Been a long time since i last blogged, like 2 weeks?
Like i mentioned before, i've been staying at WaringinPark for straight dunno-how-manydays.
Yet tonight im spending my time at home, alone, while the fattybombom girlfriend is at chalet right now.
(Hope she behaves herself..)

Nothing excited or interesting happen lately, nothing much to blog about as usual.
Havent been gyming and bballing since accident.
however, this week, i started again.
Gyming is still fine, managed to carry the same amount of weights like before.
Just that the aches lasted 3-4 days -.-
Bball, z.
Sucks like shit?
constant training is really essential for sports like bball.
shooting, running, stamina, accuracy, all gone.
all i do is, eat work sleep game and chantellequek.
yeah its a pretty life like this i know, but somehow i've to start catching up with all the things i've missed.
i have to start managing time wisely, cos project are due soon, not that im gna contribute alot but still...

Christmas is coming !
And yes ive already receive one gift.
its from... chantemama!
she went to LA few weeks back and is so nice as to bring a christmas gift back from LA.
And she passed it to me and chante few days back, guess what is it?

COACH wallets.
COACH for christmas.
wow. probably the most expensive christmas gift i've ever receieved.
Very thankful that chantemama doesnt detest me and treated me so nicely (:
unlike that fattybombom.
i dont like her today ):
esp the morning, den the evening, leaving me alone even thou i took sat off for her, not sending in schedule for work.
):

im going off now, staying at home with no fattybombom over at the other end webcaming me sucks like shit.
tmr still need to workkkkkkkk!!!!

Lastly, BIKE GOT PROBLEM AGAIN KNNCCBKKJ
$$$ Gone soon ok byebye.

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Tuesday, 2 December 2008
when you needed somebody.

@#$%^&*(



Blog's dead.


been staying over with deargirl at Waringinpark11 for the past 10days++
waking up to her smell, her voice, her face, her touch.
probably one of the many things i wana do for the rest of my life.


and thats the reason why i didnt blog regularly as well.
whenever she's around me i dowan to blog, rather waste some time with her.

but today we'll not be spending the night together.
she's with hua mel flip ( i think )
so imma sleep early so as to attend school
and i will attend school more regularly from now on.


For people who have been great students for all their life, making parents happy and worry-less for the whole education route, how does it feels like, for the first time, when ur mum will cry for you, becos she is so worried of your education.

i feel so down, never felt like this before.
for the first time, i feel that having an education is so stressful.
for the first time, i feel that i can't manage my own stuffs already.
ah, just so happen that everytime i blog, i aint in the best mood, not becos i just wanto blog about my sad encounters only.


school aside, there's still something i feel so disappointed about.
it's not you it's me, there is why i feel so bothered, and down.

holiday's coming, i hope i can be happy then.
and i fucking need more cash for christmas and birthday and anniversary.
time to work.
at the same time, i hope deargirl will be able to start work soon too.

because she doesnt want to put the bimbo song in her blog, i will.
at least for a period of time (:

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Thursday, 27 November 2008
can you hurry !

Im at Waringinpark lvl 3 waiting for the girl to come home.
she promised to be home before 10pm and now its 9.56pm.
she lied to me.
she went to fling.
im hungry and she's supposed to buy me food.
she said 8pm start, 9pm end, travel back at 10pm.
but it's not happening already.
becos she didnt even call me or text me which me she is still training as the silver skater with jing.
i am not very pleased.
not at all.
you better come back now.
if not im going home.
im going to fling.
you bubuchacha bye bye i go find xiangwei play dota alr.

love you (:

ps: our scars are healing ~ i love peeling the skins off hehehe.

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Keong

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"When you’d no longer be there
For me to gaze upon in delight
And all our feelings share
Is impossible for me
Because in my life
Is where I want you to be
Always, and forever"


Bliss

Happily in love with ChanteQuek. That's all i hope for, as for now.


Sex and love

LOVERGIRL

STEFTHYNAME COLIN JANICE DARREN COLLEEN JOLENE JINGYI JIAYING JOEL JOEY LYNN ZHIHAO RON LISIAN LIJUN SHERWIN CLARISSA PRISCILLA XIUZHEN
ANDY KELVIN YANTING BRYANG ESTHER VANESSA HELLY JESSLYN STEFFI HANNAH KITTY Numboys


Noise,


Mmrs